Imagination as wide as the skies and thoughts as narrow as the space between love and hate. I ponder on a variety of situations and what the outcome might be, how it changes parties involved and the environment as a whole. The predictability of relationships and the inevitability of the 'four seasons'.
'Seasons' lulled in time, 'seasons' present and 'seasons' to come. Gathering a whirl-wind of thoughts........thoughts of affection and hate; idle and constructive. Thoughts intricate end extricate , exposed by brows risen in time of turmoil and jubilee!
Creating minds of conflict and contributing generously to social and personal demise while for some, chapters of happiness.
Where are you heading?!
We build and maintain monstrous characters...........characters of acquaintances, those befriended and ,sometimes, others subconsciously from self.
Change is within and omnipresent, waiting for conscious minds to unfold and invite. Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability! it comes with constant, continuous struggles.
You can change and see change, regardless of 'status': educational background and financial woes. Do not allow external forces to clip your progressive wing!
A friend once told me that the storm is heavier when it's almost over....
Friday, November 28, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Working Out.......!
The door screeched open as a wave of soothing, chilly breeze swiped my face....... leaving residue of moisture and smothered assurance of life! i embraced it since the rest of me was hugged with thick cotton......wrist.......ankle......right down to the soles of my feet which pressed with comfort and readiness.
Standing out on the veranda now, i tried peering through the thick " cloud" of fog which "hurdled" the entire spacious, rural area. Clearly......no sight of dawn but the glare of street lights in the distance.
White........yellow........red......blinking intermittently as if to substitute for a patriotic audience!( Well, so i narcissisticly imagined). I smirked and began, briskly on my parpet, warming up.
Ah...ah..ah!......nose tickling, eyes swimming in a river of 'tears'
Chew!....then came the long awaited temporary opening of my congested nostrils which evoked an instant headache.
I quickly adjusted the zip on my turtle-neck track suit and shoe laces then took off! first on fresh green grass which took no heed of my trespassing.
Then on tarred roads, most of it swallowed by fog, covered with red sand.
Trit........Trot.......Trit.....Trot
Woof!.....Woof!......Woof!
Tremors of fear swirled up my spine, once again, reminding me of a merciless canine encounter. I made a swift detour through an unfamiliar short-cut in effort to a narrow escape.
Tritee.....Trot......Tritee.... Trot
I continued in a slower pace trying to hold firm in weak ankles. Facing now the moon as dawn began to creep up. The full, white.........light-deprived beauty against blue timid skies. As my upper body swung from side to side in a steady rhythmic bounce, i thought of how i questioned the strenght of my abilities on track...........fueling my pace........i grew almost breathless!
.......reduced speed and stuck with the flow.
Fog still thick and air still chilly
Engines as groggy as the eerie sight of the morning hastily approached whilst fetching two blinding head-lights. I assumed it was the Fish truck........the 'rank' filled the air and even conjested nostrils!
Trit......Trot.....Trit....Trot
Feet heavy.......the needle-boring pinch of thigh muscle commomly known as 'cramps'........and the pending aroma of a hearty breakfast were no "MATCH!" with a resolute soul.
I resort to my usual chant:
one mile more.......one mile more........one mile more. Gradually feeling the restoration of energy! the finish line went blur but this time the fog hardly contributed to reason. 'third-eye' locked on goal to accomplish, accompanied with shrugged feelings of giving up!
Soaked from head to toe......immediately i felt a rush of satisfaction charged with silent compliments by passers-by and the distractive rays of nature's best friend; cracking through now brazen skies. (a neck-neck interest with the moon)......
I gushed even more knowing that i have added yet another memorable chapter to my book of accomplishments!
Standing out on the veranda now, i tried peering through the thick " cloud" of fog which "hurdled" the entire spacious, rural area. Clearly......no sight of dawn but the glare of street lights in the distance.
White........yellow........red......blinking intermittently as if to substitute for a patriotic audience!( Well, so i narcissisticly imagined). I smirked and began, briskly on my parpet, warming up.
Ah...ah..ah!......nose tickling, eyes swimming in a river of 'tears'
Chew!....then came the long awaited temporary opening of my congested nostrils which evoked an instant headache.
I quickly adjusted the zip on my turtle-neck track suit and shoe laces then took off! first on fresh green grass which took no heed of my trespassing.
Then on tarred roads, most of it swallowed by fog, covered with red sand.
Trit........Trot.......Trit.....Trot
Woof!.....Woof!......Woof!
Tremors of fear swirled up my spine, once again, reminding me of a merciless canine encounter. I made a swift detour through an unfamiliar short-cut in effort to a narrow escape.
Tritee.....Trot......Tritee.... Trot
I continued in a slower pace trying to hold firm in weak ankles. Facing now the moon as dawn began to creep up. The full, white.........light-deprived beauty against blue timid skies. As my upper body swung from side to side in a steady rhythmic bounce, i thought of how i questioned the strenght of my abilities on track...........fueling my pace........i grew almost breathless!
.......reduced speed and stuck with the flow.
Fog still thick and air still chilly
Engines as groggy as the eerie sight of the morning hastily approached whilst fetching two blinding head-lights. I assumed it was the Fish truck........the 'rank' filled the air and even conjested nostrils!
Trit......Trot.....Trit....Trot
Feet heavy.......the needle-boring pinch of thigh muscle commomly known as 'cramps'........and the pending aroma of a hearty breakfast were no "MATCH!" with a resolute soul.
I resort to my usual chant:
one mile more.......one mile more........one mile more. Gradually feeling the restoration of energy! the finish line went blur but this time the fog hardly contributed to reason. 'third-eye' locked on goal to accomplish, accompanied with shrugged feelings of giving up!
Soaked from head to toe......immediately i felt a rush of satisfaction charged with silent compliments by passers-by and the distractive rays of nature's best friend; cracking through now brazen skies. (a neck-neck interest with the moon)......
I gushed even more knowing that i have added yet another memorable chapter to my book of accomplishments!
Monday, November 24, 2008
I had a dream
Galaxy wide, stars attractive, thoughts focussed, " bodies in motion " all gathered in the 'Bliss of Nothingness'
I spun lightly in the welcoming chill and darkness of the wide seemingly never-ending tale of the night............as thoughts refused possibilities of spoken conversation and dismissed the inevitability of sleep and dawn. The "doodling" dance continued; willingly revealing blurred images of remote objects circling and somersaulting playfully in their 'dance of trance'
Blurred objects in the skies!......circling my spectacled companion in the distant midst but close enough to notice his subtle expressions.....
I stared; first feeling the nakedness of my feet then slowly dwindling knumb as if to disguise myself amongst my blurry neighbours.
I stared; forcibly enjoying the "ride" at one point......... then literally throwing myself to the winds at another
Questions tugged violently at the 'heart-shaped' lock of the "treasure chest", hitting the core of conscience, filled with answers?....
'Fortification!' went a thunderous but clear echo which, effortlessly, cast my conjested thoughts aside and grabbed, once again, my focus! i knew i confronted the word before but i was now distracted in finding the source than what it meant.
As if to ruffle its track after an indiscreet 'performance', i felt the inevitable revisit and shattered my search.
i woke up!
I spun lightly in the welcoming chill and darkness of the wide seemingly never-ending tale of the night............as thoughts refused possibilities of spoken conversation and dismissed the inevitability of sleep and dawn. The "doodling" dance continued; willingly revealing blurred images of remote objects circling and somersaulting playfully in their 'dance of trance'
Blurred objects in the skies!......circling my spectacled companion in the distant midst but close enough to notice his subtle expressions.....
I stared; first feeling the nakedness of my feet then slowly dwindling knumb as if to disguise myself amongst my blurry neighbours.
I stared; forcibly enjoying the "ride" at one point......... then literally throwing myself to the winds at another
Questions tugged violently at the 'heart-shaped' lock of the "treasure chest", hitting the core of conscience, filled with answers?....
'Fortification!' went a thunderous but clear echo which, effortlessly, cast my conjested thoughts aside and grabbed, once again, my focus! i knew i confronted the word before but i was now distracted in finding the source than what it meant.
As if to ruffle its track after an indiscreet 'performance', i felt the inevitable revisit and shattered my search.
i woke up!
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
solitude
welcoming thoughts of solitude nipping at the tenderness of lingered interests
slashing ruthlessly at feelings sprouting adrenaline...............nothing compares, motivates thus changes the mood!
Gnawing like mutant rodents set out to kill!........creeping crawling, seeking soft almost papered
remains like that of a bill
Welcoming thoughts of solitude; enveloping the moving world and to an unforbidden place then cast!
engulfing a mind attached to a fragmented heart.......fluctuated emotions coated with subtle thinking
like a ghost! hollow and aimless!...............waiting for a conscious soul to set it free!
oh how i long to be!
slashing ruthlessly at feelings sprouting adrenaline...............nothing compares, motivates thus changes the mood!
Gnawing like mutant rodents set out to kill!........creeping crawling, seeking soft almost papered
remains like that of a bill
Welcoming thoughts of solitude; enveloping the moving world and to an unforbidden place then cast!
engulfing a mind attached to a fragmented heart.......fluctuated emotions coated with subtle thinking
like a ghost! hollow and aimless!...............waiting for a conscious soul to set it free!
oh how i long to be!
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