A Lover's Tale

Surrounded by blinkers, awakened by the silence of the night............caressed by thoughts ignite!
Skies humble; once dark now purple
Telling tales of lovers' trails..........
nightingales
and daffodils !

I held his hands and he calmed mine...........embracing passion.... a moment divine
A mistletoe hung still........in a time..........at a time
when carolling seized and raindrops clung to shivering leaves

He stroked my cheek; i gripped his thumb
He stared intently and i grinned
He spoke and i listened..........no i couldn't
Like my toes; my thoughts went numb

I rattled on and he fixed my hair
Nocturnal creatures far and near
Communed, tunefully,
in this lovers' tale.........
they too...... with their matching pair

I clenched my fist, angry of this dream!.....this bliss!.....
hoping, someday, it'll touch with thoughts of reminisce!

He whispered my name and i did the same
His hands rest on full thighs and i felt his warmth embraced

We stepped abreast and his kiss did the rest!
He held my head against his chest and i danced to the rhythm of his beat!.......our beat!
I moved my feet.......we moved our feet
My hair now neat

......this dream?!.....this biss!.........
why do i feel like this?!

I delved in softness under my sheet
This must be real........i am complete!

Feelings grow when we're apart
Needing you and wondering, when again, we'll meet!

My Positon

I've had my share and satisfied pleasure of choices careless and those clever
All cleved to sewn seed of need and greed

Maybe i can explore and evenmore
but my thoughts ravelled and being 'soar'

This is how it is, i wouldn't procrastinate
Do you fathom ? my potential "texting mate"

A Moment in Time...

Giant drops of rain 'attacked' like needles in a pin cushion
Stinging skin.....cleansing soul.......retrieving "sight"
Attacked!...like an army of unarmed soldiers on ambush........ using plain skill and strength
to destroy an "enemy" momentarily unknown to self
Nature in her prime.......!
A spiritual moment in time

An 'enemy' ignoring pain and oblivious to alien intention
Hair as black as ebony......drenched and slick; streaming down exposed torso
Eyes pouring infinite concern and trickling vulnerability
Shoulders square and thoughts afloat
Gesture inexplicable but chimed
in tune........with this.........very note
Sole world, bound by feminine rhyme
A lasting moment in time

Hands clutching.......squeezing;bent elbows to palm
increasingly absorbing temperature, serenity........and the 'annoying' bumble bee
Acknowledging sweetness of nature's traditional.......... midnight.....moonlight
sure sight!........ponderous plight?!
Neither can be traded for a dollar or dime
A priceless moment in time

Response to "Absent hands......why?"

You ask of me...what i'm not
Yes! i've given all of what you said a fair "shot"
Again!........you ask of me what i'm not

If you believe that absent hands is enough to sum conclusion, then let your belief transcend........
I'm no 'grabber'......i respond completely, only to feelings emanating from my supposed partner
whose embrace he selfishly lend....

Sensual whispers......if not barred by sealed lips....would have ushered desirable
grips.......!!

In "sodden" spirits you led the way......hinted "lines" in mixed array
........how am i to know that you 'craved' this way?

HANDS?..... Absent hands?
Hands explored masculine, facial curves........feverish for "opposite" hands to calm and cup flowery reserve
At times like this, it always shows...........ripple nerves and shivering toes! Hence, my uncharacteristic pose

Disappointed?.....Baffled?...No
More.....enlightened....exposed...a stir of fresh air
My answer's Yes!......i must confess!
And, honey?.........i wish you well in your futuristic quest!

Incest

Trembling lips, Chattering teeth, teary eyes
Cultivated by a moment's despair
......torn dress soiled with blood; her innocence struggled to care
Mind and heart of only ten years, flooded with life's most dreaded fears

Hovering in stiff erection painted a face resembling hers
Familiar eyes gazed in jubilee!........ with intentions she thought demanded a fee!
Now aware of the knowledge rooted from a game
....she knew her childhood would never be the same

Masculine hands patted her hair
she ached......apprehensively...to relive the horrid nightmare
Confused, she knew no friend nor foe but a man who dared stoop so low!

Trying to accept the way it seemed
Mary wished it was all a dream!

Had I Your Friendship?

Singing............we had a progressive group
Trinty! i remembered.....songs of all seasons we sought
"Keep it up!" our listeners would say, but collectively ensured that our ego didn't lead us astray
Laughter.........we shared even at moments when the day seemed too saturated with gloom
At times when difficulties faced us.........troubles braced us and humility tried to chase us
A smirk....Grin...or Chuckle Heavens knew we had little room

You probably don't know this but i stood up for you!
Occasions numerous.......all from associates.....erasing footprints on the trail of treachery
People who you may have labelled....... good
I didn't care......in true friendship........my friendship......our friendship.....i stood
Bearing pure thoughts of strenghtened comradery

I'm one of three......disappointed but cared....hilarious! outburst of comments you dared!
But we stuck by you because of the relationshhip we shared

Another of three, closer to you than me.....like two peas in a pod!....i'm sure you'll agree!
Hurt and bruised......trust which you abused
......she took you in.....
a promise she kept
I can only imagine, how she wept....if she wept

Now you're overseas.......a medical career you pursue
An opportunist you are......away from me?.....i'm glad you're far
I wish you well and under hands........divine........i hope you dwell

Now tell me this.....Had i both your friendship ?
Because you truly had mine

Mind Storm....

Imagination as wide as the skies and thoughts as narrow as the space between love and hate. I ponder on a variety of situations and what the outcome might be, how it changes parties involved and the environment as a whole. The predictability of relationships and the inevitability of the 'four seasons'.

'Seasons' lulled in time, 'seasons' present and 'seasons' to come. Gathering a whirl-wind of thoughts........thoughts of affection and hate; idle and constructive. Thoughts intricate end extricate , exposed by brows risen in time of turmoil and jubilee!
Creating minds of conflict and contributing generously to social and personal demise while for some, chapters of happiness.

Where are you heading?!
We build and maintain monstrous characters...........characters of acquaintances, those befriended and ,sometimes, others subconsciously from self.
Change is within and omnipresent, waiting for conscious minds to unfold and invite. Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability! it comes with constant, continuous struggles.
You can change and see change, regardless of 'status': educational background and financial woes. Do not allow external forces to clip your progressive wing!

A friend once told me that the storm is heavier when it's almost over....

Working Out.......!

The door screeched open as a wave of soothing, chilly breeze swiped my face....... leaving residue of moisture and smothered assurance of life! i embraced it since the rest of me was hugged with thick cotton......wrist.......ankle......right down to the soles of my feet which pressed with comfort and readiness.

Standing out on the veranda now, i tried peering through the thick " cloud" of fog which "hurdled" the entire spacious, rural area. Clearly......no sight of dawn but the glare of street lights in the distance.

White........yellow........red......blinking intermittently as if to substitute for a patriotic audience!( Well, so i narcissisticly imagined). I smirked and began, briskly on my parpet, warming up.
Ah...ah..ah!......nose tickling, eyes swimming in a river of 'tears'
Chew!....then came the long awaited temporary opening of my congested nostrils which evoked an instant headache.
I quickly adjusted the zip on my turtle-neck track suit and shoe laces then took off! first on fresh green grass which took no heed of my trespassing.
Then on tarred roads, most of it swallowed by fog, covered with red sand.

Trit........Trot.......Trit.....Trot
Woof!.....Woof!......Woof!
Tremors of fear swirled up my spine, once again, reminding me of a merciless canine encounter. I made a swift detour through an unfamiliar short-cut in effort to a narrow escape.

Tritee.....Trot......Tritee.... Trot
I continued in a slower pace trying to hold firm in weak ankles. Facing now the moon as dawn began to creep up. The full, white.........light-deprived beauty against blue timid skies. As my upper body swung from side to side in a steady rhythmic bounce, i thought of how i questioned the strenght of my abilities on track...........fueling my pace........i grew almost breathless!
.......reduced speed and stuck with the flow.
Fog still thick and air still chilly
Engines as groggy as the eerie sight of the morning hastily approached whilst fetching two blinding head-lights. I assumed it was the Fish truck........the 'rank' filled the air and even conjested nostrils!


Trit......Trot.....Trit....Trot
Feet heavy.......the needle-boring pinch of thigh muscle commomly known as 'cramps'........and the pending aroma of a hearty breakfast were no "MATCH!" with a resolute soul.

I resort to my usual chant:
one mile more.......one mile more........one mile more. Gradually feeling the restoration of energy! the finish line went blur but this time the fog hardly contributed to reason. 'third-eye' locked on goal to accomplish, accompanied with shrugged feelings of giving up!

Soaked from head to toe......immediately i felt a rush of satisfaction charged with silent compliments by passers-by and the distractive rays of nature's best friend; cracking through now brazen skies. (a neck-neck interest with the moon)......

I gushed even more knowing that i have added yet another memorable chapter to my book of accomplishments!

I had a dream

Galaxy wide, stars attractive, thoughts focussed, " bodies in motion " all gathered in the 'Bliss of Nothingness'

I spun lightly in the welcoming chill and darkness of the wide seemingly never-ending tale of the night............as thoughts refused possibilities of spoken conversation and dismissed the inevitability of sleep and dawn. The "doodling" dance continued; willingly revealing blurred images of remote objects circling and somersaulting playfully in their 'dance of trance'


Blurred objects in the skies!......circling my spectacled companion in the distant midst but close enough to notice his subtle expressions.....


I stared; first feeling the nakedness of my feet then slowly dwindling knumb as if to disguise myself amongst my blurry neighbours.


I stared; forcibly enjoying the "ride" at one point......... then literally throwing myself to the winds at another
Questions tugged violently at the 'heart-shaped' lock of the "treasure chest", hitting the core of conscience, filled with answers?....

'Fortification!' went a thunderous but clear echo which, effortlessly, cast my conjested thoughts aside and grabbed, once again, my focus! i knew i confronted the word before but i was now distracted in finding the source than what it meant.
As if to ruffle its track after an indiscreet 'performance', i felt the inevitable revisit and shattered my search.
i woke up!

solitude

welcoming thoughts of solitude nipping at the tenderness of lingered interests
slashing ruthlessly at feelings sprouting adrenaline...............nothing compares, motivates thus changes the mood!
Gnawing like mutant rodents set out to kill!........creeping crawling, seeking soft almost papered
remains like that of a bill

Welcoming thoughts of solitude; enveloping the moving world and to an unforbidden place then cast!
engulfing a mind attached to a fragmented heart.......fluctuated emotions coated with subtle thinking
like a ghost! hollow and aimless!...............waiting for a conscious soul to set it free!
oh how i long to be!